Last night I was feeling a mix of emotions....sadness, frustration, and impatience. Earlier in the day, I went to the store and it seemed like everyone woman I passed was pregnant ( and looked absolutely adorable) and/or had children. I could tell I was becoming moody (Mickey would probably say this is an every day occurrence:), but I didn't understand why. I realized that moodiness stemmed from our experience with infertility and our adoption process. I will be the first to admit, I am a very impatient person. So, right there in the middle of the store I was having myself a little pity party. Why couldn't I get pregnant? Why haven't we received a referral yet? All I could think about were the superficial things; like, how fun it would be to dress the baby up for Halloween or our first Christmas with our little one.
Later that evening, while watching TV a commercial came on. I honestly felt like God was throwing out a little reminder in regards to my little pity party I had earlier in the day. This commercial just made me smile and tear up a little. I realized I should be praising the Lord for giving Mickey and me the opportunity to adopt! Not feeling sorry for myself and doubting Him! He has an amazing plan for us I am certain.
Jer 29:11: For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Below is the commercial I saw last night.
Jack and Mick, God has His timing, and we bow to it. Like you guys, we are anxiously awaiting this little guy (or gal) from across the sea. We long for the day to come soon when we will look out at the swing set to see all eight of our grandkids playing out there!
ReplyDeletePity parties are normal. They are also very unhelpful. I've had a few in my day. But, they are lies I believe that the Enemy uses to get us to complain against the goodness of God in all things. You are right to focus on the blessings God has given you. Each other, family & supportive friends, "the opportunity to adopt", His Goodness in all things. What a gracious God we serve… Praying for you today.
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